My Heart Is Broken To Many Million Pieces
...Sniff ...Sniff ...Sniff...
My heart is in absolute pain right now. Currently I cannot master and muster the guts to be up and running with something that is going to hurt my career as an aspiring fashion journalist/blogger. The news I received was too painful for me to accept and till now, I am still allowing myself to have all these information sink in. Ouch. I do not write like this, I do not normally write like this, but pass me the tissue box and allow me sob in this post and allow me the choice of words.
I do not have anything smart or funny to say right now. All I know is that my heart is wounded and is in a far cry from healing. Why Ash? Why?
"Have fallen in love with you since 2008; back when you were still a rising model, back when your popularity was exclusive to the fashion world and the fashionable people only, up until you went mainstream my heart never left you. I just knew you had it in you. I knew you were going to make it big someday. Look at where you're standing right now? I was right was I?
I could not put my grief into words. I am so disheartened when I knew about this. When you decided to leave the fashion scene for a bit to focus on music, was something I was able to accept but now, when you are leaving our world for a better world, it's a different story.
(Oh good lord, I'm having the gayest moment here, but whatevs, please allow me to sulk, I'm having a moment here AND after all, i fell in love. so waddup?)
Still cannot believe it. But I am trying. Everyday. Was planning to meet you someday, someday when I become as famous as you, but I guess that will never ever happen. So I wish you well, may you live a good life, may you be happy now that your married. I promise to always think of you and to blog about you whenever I can. I love you. Always have, always will.
Ash Stymest and Maille Doyle got married last October 2011
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